Good friend to Good friend–> The Hardest Half for ME to Overcome When Getting Remarried!

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For me personally… the toughest a part of getting married once more was studying how on the earth to be susceptible.

That is type of a random matter to write down about nevertheless it actually was one thing that I struggled with within the first few years of marriage so possibly it’s for others too!  I’d love to listen to from others which have gone by way of a divorce/massive breakup and going into their subsequent massive relationship if that is one thing they wrestle/struggled with too.

Fast timeline of occasions:

Brooke was born 08/15/2012

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I began the divorce course of and moved again to Utah 7/31/13

Met Andrew 4/26/2016

Married Andrew and have become a step-mom to Knox 7/08/2016

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Skye was born 12/08/2017

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And Beck was born 11/04/2020

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Lengthy story brief, lots of adjustments occurred since 2012!

So let’s chat about what the toughest a part of getting remarried was for me—> My mind wanted lots of work and counseling to dismiss the ideas that popped up in my head within the first two years of marriage to Andrew:

“The actual me, the uncomfortable, the messy, the deepest components of who I’m, my actual feelings, my truest ideas weren’t ok the primary time round in marriage so why on the earth would they be ok the second time round?!  Put up partitions and don’t present weak spot as a result of I can’t probably lose Andrew.”

And that story I made up is so incorrect and goodness gracious Andrew loves me for who I’m in every second nevertheless it was one thing I made up, believed, needed to overcome and toss. It was a narrative that made me cry simply typing once more on this publish all this time later as a result of it was a narrative that basically scared me.  I needed to be taught to belief that I used to be sufficient and belief the concept that marriage can work all whereas studying the best way to be susceptible once more.  Placing up partitions and simply displaying the snug sides of me feels quite a bit simpler however that’s not one of the best factor for a relationship and what actually connects one to others.

It actually was a shock to my system once I realized how arduous it was for me to be susceptible a number of months into marriage and be 100% me and open about every part as a result of I assumed the years of counseling/work earlier than getting married once more fastened me… It wasn’t till I used to be in a wedding that I noticed how arduous it was to be susceptible as a result of up till that time I had mastered being alone or relationships that weren’t very critical with the entire partitions I might ever wish to construct.

I’m undecided if anybody can relate to those emotions however I assume I simply needed to share them.  Andrew has handled me like gold since day #1 and would by no means damage me however my private wrestle to belief and actually notice that has been REAL.  Relationships might be arduous.  Letting your partitions down and letting others in makes my chest damage nonetheless typically as a result of rejection is painful.  Studying that YOU ARE ENOUGH simply the best way you’re is a wrestle for me and others.  It takes lots of work to not let your thoughts go down a tunnel of ‘what-ifs’ and cease the unfavorable ideas and exchange them with optimistic ones.  It took investing in counseling (finest cash I’ve ever spent… I did counseling alone and we did counseling periods collectively:) to be taught to rewire my mind to take down these partitions and be me with out concern or shedding him.

However it positive does really feel superb (and like I took off a 500 lb backpack) to give you the option let Andrew in on all of my ideas/emotions/feelings/rawness.  The connection has been a lot stronger and I’m so grateful for the way affected person he’s with me.

So 3, 2, 1… publish a weblog publish a few topic that makes me really feel very susceptible in hopes that it could possibly assist others search out the assistance wanted to be taught to be susceptible once more the second time round.


Time for a really broad query—> What have been a few of the hardest components for you adjusting to marriage (if you’re married) or a brand new relationship?  

These of you in a second marriage (or a second massive relationship), what was the toughest half for you?

Have you ever had any tales in your head that you’ve got made up and needed to toss?




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